when was the last time i logged in??

life is sometimes crappy...i haven't been updating this blog since classes started last june...i guess anyone reading this would know the reason why...DUH!!homework...but right now,i don't want to think of it because i need to relax and unwind this sembreak!!!!cool!!!

so let me backtrack a bit...we moved last july 8 if i remember correctly,but i haven't had much time to explore this village since we got here all because of homework...i've been diligent enough this semester,trying to run around doing all the homework the professors throw at us...hopefully it all worked out...my sister gave birth last august to a baby boy,our little nephew jacob...*pinch* got around to passing everything last saturday,and going to the fort at ucc just to pass the last of our plates to prof.belinda...so much for darna productions...that's all i can remember right now..it seems my brain tried to block off all the other traumatic events in school...

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oh wait!!!!dang..couldn't completely relax though..i still have to wait for clearance day,which is crappy as usual...i don't want to go on running after professors who have nothing better to do than lose all the plates you worked so hard for,forget to write your name down on her class record,or even blame you for not passing your papers even if they were the ones who lost it anyway...ahem ahem...my classmates know who this professor is.

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anyhow,moving on...i'm going to miss my friends this break...no more running after professors,yelling at people in nitz,or just acting crazy because we don't know where to start working on plates...shoutouts to emy,chang,star,shiela and jhaemz..damn,i couldn't have done it without you guys!

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this laptop i'm using right now is virus laden...you wouldn't want to stick your flashdisk into this laptop,that's for sure...rontok,some sort of worm,probably trojan and some other viruses that's out of my vocabulary...whoever got this virus into this computer is surely going to get a whole lot of karma!!!!i'm going to have this laptop reformatted and i'm making sure no one's inserting a virus-filled flashdisk in here...the hell i care if they don't get to finish their homework of if they have to start all over again...the answer is no!

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anyhow,minus all the homework,i'm going to miss school a whole lot...i'm going to miss all the laughs and the bonding...i would even miss everyone gossiping about everyone else...who cares,it's just gossip anyway...i've been there and fortunately i've gotten the hang of it,being all indifferent to all the crap that's flying around my back and over my head...

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thank you to my friends...shiela,emy,riz,star,chang,james...thanks for helping me out especially with the jewelry contest...win or lose,i owe everything to you guys...for the support and help...hopefully we could go on some sort of out of school activity again...bonding time!!!!memories!!!dang,it's been only 2 days since we last hung out together yet i miss you guys already!text text ah!!!sobrang kakamiss...let's work our asses off for hiraya and beat the crap out of lisa next sem!walang iwanan mga friends!love you guys!see you soon!

my days are...whatever!

we're moving,we're moving!!!and i haven't packed a single thing yet..i'm so dead..i have to cram everything by tomorrow or monday..throw everything out...i know i don't have a really strong alibi for not doing my duties but i've been so busy with school and stuff, i don't really have that much time to clean up...oh well...moving on...

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LTS days...a whole lot of fun...*whispers* grabe,gumulong-gulong kami sa putikan...*shouts* WEE!!!!*laughs* i went there for fun but i have to admit i learned a lot...i met new friends...great friends!and those experiences i had with them are the things i would always treasure... naks,senti...(SHOUTOUTS: to the most inspiring team!!!*laughs*) i miss Mt. Makiling...the trees,my bunk bed,my bunk-mate,and my roommies!!!!i miss you guys...our chika days and nights are something i wouldn't forget...to the guy and gays next door,i miss our midnight hangouts...*laughs*(star,ako talaga ung kumakanta nung gabing un...promise!)i did it...i survived the trials and activities of the LTS...(KATHY: #9:control ur attitude) congrats star,it was a great experience...i enjoyed all of it... :)

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to all those whatever people...my life wouldn't be complete without you...no matter what you say behind my back or to my face,you're that factor that reminds me of reality...my life is real,with ups and downs...whatever you think or say about me,thank you...you're really a whole lot of help...you've made me a better person. Ü

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i'm so hungry..i haven't eaten my dinner yet..and i think i'll just have a snack tonight..i'll go pig out tomorrow morning...*laughs* i'll go eat now...ciao!

before classes start...

i played badminton today!!!i had so much fun...i had the chance to beat the hell out of 3 of my shuttlecocks..it was so much fun..shoutouts to my badminton buddies for today...(ate kate and arjay!*waves*) sa uulitin ah!!!so how does monday sound?*laughs* thanks again guys!

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i'm going to be so busy in the next few days...dang!getting my license,buying/looking/waiting for my violin..i'm so close to fulfilling this dream...i'm so going to finish lessons...yahoo!!!i'm so excited...yebah!!!anyhow,we're so close to moving to our new house...i don't know when exactly but we are moving soon...i can't wait...but the waiting period's so annoying...you have to sort through things,pack the things you need,throw away things you don't really need..and when we get there,i bet you a million bucks that i'm going to lose half the things i pack...really important things...crappy crappy crappy...

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i can't write a long entry right now...i'm watching one tree hill right now...*laughs* i'm such a fan... see yah later...soon..whenever!

life is full of suprises...even those you never really want...

i can't believe i'm so preoccupied with so many thoughts these days...it's funny when i think of it..so many thoughts yet so little words to describe them... *sighs worriedly* so much for "spending time" huh?damn,you know who you are...all this thinking is driving me crazy!i can't describe how sad and worried i am...i don't need you to give me things, and i don't need you to tell me na babawi ka next time...i don't want that...why don't you get it?ikaw yung gusto ko,ayoko ng mga gamit o regalo...all i want is time...QUALITY time...*sighs* this phase is going to be so hard...i just hope i can get through this...and with what you just told me,i doubt there would be any more quality time...you're going to be too busy to find time for us...i just hope you won't think you're too good for me anytime soon..this is hard enough to deal with..any more of this would drive me insane...

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damn,summer is almost over and i have this stupid sucky schedule...i can't believe summer went by so fast..this is going to be so hard...i'm obviously distracted and i don't think i can work on my school projects well if i'm so preoccupied with so many problems...i just hope i get over all of this soon..i'm tired of thinking...i wish i could just stop thinking but i can't...*sighs* i don't know what else to do!!!!

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anyhow...i'm tired..even if i just stayed home all day..i'm still tired...all this thinking is wearing me out...i'll get back to this soon...or at least i'll TRY to before school starts...

thoughts...simple thoughts...

it is hot...whew!i haven't been updating this blog lately..i've been really busy this summer,with badminton and all...(waaaah!!!!i'm an addict...Ü) shoutouts to my badminton buddies!!!i miss you guys..i hope to see you again real soon..i hope to play with you guys real soon too!i miss you guys...

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anyhow...i went to cebu...i had a great time there..i'm starting to miss my cousins' company...ann,lyn,jun-jun and my other friends...i miss you guys...i hope you can come to manila this year..i mean,for a visit..maybe we can all hangout and have a good time..then i could you around...*sighs* til next time guys!

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to...you...you know who you are...years ago,you made me promise.."walang iwanan ah..." but look who's leaving now...i know you're not leaving that soon but still you are,even before i get out of college...i can't help but think..you're breaking the promise...*sighs and is near tears* wala ngang iwanan tapos ikaw naman pala 'tong mang-iiwan..ang drama,pero totoo,diba?damn,it's true..think about it...i can't make you choose,because whatever it is,i would never make you change your mind about going,i couldn't just tell you to stay..even if you tell me it's for a better future,or our future...i'm not too excited about the idea...and,how sure are you we're going to share that same future..it's not that i don't want that..i do,really...it's just that,i can't stand you being so far away...there..i said it..sorry for all the drama but that's how i really feel...i'm not making you choose..i'm just telling you how i feel..i'm sorry if this is getting you so confused...i hope things would get better for us...

how long has it been???

damn i hate what's happening these past few days...har har har...laugh all you want but what happened in school was something i do not deserve...maybe if she were to read this blog,she wouldn't be so doubtful when it comes to my reading and writing abilities...damn her...she'll lose her job soon,hopefully...after all the harrassment a lot of us went through with her,that's the only thing she deserves...i never deserved the way she treated me, and neither did gianne...her principles are so twisted...she's crazy...the more she does what she does,the more all of us lose respect for her...for one thing,i don't respect her no more...bilang na oras mo bulldog...*evil laugh*

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to all my friends...(let me be more specific...my REAL friends...) thanks for the help and support...i really deserve it...there's no doubt i'll give you guys the same kind of support you've given me...and to gianne...thanks for sticking up for me...you can count on it i'll do the same for you...

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DotA days...oh how i miss 'em!i miss playing DotA...i need to play soon...nyarch!!!and oh yeah...i wanna watch ice age 2 too!i'm such a fan...hehehehehe!hopefully it could take away all the stress i'm going through right now...*sighs*

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i'm going to cebu soon,and i'm looking forward to having a nice time there...get away from it all even for just a couple of days...hahahaha!i'm so excited,just thinking about it is making me feel better...and oh yeah,shoutouts to my badminton buddies!i'm hoping to see you guys soon!

the bitch strikes back...

this witch got my bitchy side up again...my professor just has a knack for taking free time and converting it into her own period and it sucks...curse her.i don't have any respect left for you now...seriously,I HATE YOU...i hate you because you think so highly of yourself...you just want everyone else to follow what you want and i don't think that's fair...YOU'RE UNFAIR...damn,i'm so pissed off at you right now i could kill you without thinking twice..

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fuck this day...i hate almost everything that happened today..especially those things that i've heard..thank you for giving me so much attention but i don't want it...but then again,the attention you give me just assures me that i've chosen my TRUE FRIENDS well...thanks for making me realize such beautiful things in life...people like you make me realize that though life is full of so much shit,there's still...Glade Touch and Fresh that makes everything smell nice...*laughs* you can never ruin my day...because i wouldn't let you.

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today's valentine's day and i'm happy despite the fucking professor i have..i have to thank my guy for all this,i owe him...he made my day and though we weren't able to spend it together,he managed to keep me smiling and laughing...to my guy,thank you for making me happy..and to everyone else,happy valentine's day!