life is full of suprises...even those you never really want...

i can't believe i'm so preoccupied with so many thoughts these days...it's funny when i think of it..so many thoughts yet so little words to describe them... *sighs worriedly* so much for "spending time" huh?damn,you know who you are...all this thinking is driving me crazy!i can't describe how sad and worried i am...i don't need you to give me things, and i don't need you to tell me na babawi ka next time...i don't want that...why don't you get it?ikaw yung gusto ko,ayoko ng mga gamit o regalo...all i want is time...QUALITY time...*sighs* this phase is going to be so hard...i just hope i can get through this...and with what you just told me,i doubt there would be any more quality time...you're going to be too busy to find time for us...i just hope you won't think you're too good for me anytime soon..this is hard enough to deal with..any more of this would drive me insane...

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damn,summer is almost over and i have this stupid sucky schedule...i can't believe summer went by so fast..this is going to be so hard...i'm obviously distracted and i don't think i can work on my school projects well if i'm so preoccupied with so many problems...i just hope i get over all of this soon..i'm tired of thinking...i wish i could just stop thinking but i can't...*sighs* i don't know what else to do!!!!

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anyhow...i'm tired..even if i just stayed home all day..i'm still tired...all this thinking is wearing me out...i'll get back to this soon...or at least i'll TRY to before school starts...